50s dress and a jukebox, life could not be better~

baconistasty, is this un-prom enough for you? :p

todays outfit for dinner. I must admit I do enjoy these formal dress occasions.. ;p

dress and hairpiece made by me :D

and photo by my dad :]

my first time ever playing with a dolphin c;

today in the grand caymans~

I don’t often wear hats, and nowadays I just tell myself not to get them but.. this was a special case. ;p the colors!

highlighter pink crocheted hat, got it in jamaica today :D

we had a “formal” dinner tonight so I did my hair. happy with how it turned out. :] will upload photo of my outfit later..

I find this to be so much more stressful than my ideal vacation (making stuff, sewing! and watching netflix).. last year my brother and his girlfriend went on a cruise and gave us glowing reviews of how wonderful it was and how nice everyone was to them..

but I’ve had such a terrible experience so far. lost luggage that they tried to give to another room on another floor. and a demeaning cashier who asked for the “magic word” from me before he’d give me my diet coke (I was not rude in my request at all). he thought I was a young kid I think, since he didn’t ask anybody else around me. I complied and thought nothing of it, giving him a nice “please” but as I walked away I realized that it was completely condescending and rude of him. I confronted him shortly after and he tried to say he asked that of everyone..yeah right. my mom went straight before me and he did not ask her.

sorry if I sound spoiled or unappreciative of this vacation, I’m just really stressed ;o

so I went on this cruise with my parents, my brother and his girlfriend. going into this I kind of felt left out, as I was the only one not in a couple (or even with someone to hang out with). around 1am last night, after going back and forth in my head making a decision, I finally worked up the courage and decided to walk into the dance club on my own.

I stood alone on the outskirts of the dance floor, hoping someone would offer to buy me a drink (I find it much easier to start dancing that way), or just enough courage to go and start dancing without a partner. finally after about half an hour a guy walks up to me and asks if I want to dance. I noticed him working his way toward me for at least 10 minutes.. and then I said no!

 it would have been fun to finally get on the floor, even if I didn’t find him particularly attractive. I know once I start dancing I’ll have a good time. but no. in my panic I awkwardly told him I was still deciding if I wanted to dance, didn’t look him in the eye, waited an awkward minute, then headed toward the exit without knowing what to say. as soon as I was out the door I immediately regretted my decision

now I feel bad for the guy.. I mean really, I’m sure I sent off signals begging for someone to come up to me, and then I rejected him.

I think I have social issues sometimes.. I panic when I’m not sure what to do and usually end up regretting my response to the situation later. don’t get me wrong though. If I go into something with one other person by my side, I can be as normal as can be, and maybe even pretty outgoing (sometimes). but for some reason being on my own does things to my social skills.. I’m starting to work on that.