I’m kind of obsessed with this song and music video right now.

Trouble Maker by Hyuna of 4Minute and Hyunseung of Beast.

Anyone wanna make a music video with me? ;p

Half a week more until most of my university projects are done! Then I will finally be able to get into winter crafting-blogging mode (so much free time whoooo). c; I’ll finally be able to work of some more tutorials and answer messages. ♥

I haven’t posted a song in a long long while, but I’ve been listening to this one on repeat the past couple days and thought I’d share. :]

The weather has been about 30-40 degrees warmer than it normally is at this time of year..this song felt really fitting for the good mood I’m in~

Hard to Say by Jaymay

I sincerely apologize if this post hurts anyone - I realize that a lot of people who know me in real-life read this blog. But please understand this is something I had to do to personally feel better, and that I in no way wrote this to be spiteful or persuade that anyone involved in this situation is right or wrong.
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Nowadays it seems as if most things in my life are not official until I blog about them. Whether that is sad or not I have no idea; it’s just how I feel.

This week my boyfriend broke up with me. In the days that have passed from then to now, I’ve had a multitude of ups and downs. But today I’ve finally, officially, gotten over him. The way I did this seems simple, but took awhile for me to figure out.

In the case of this relationship and breakup, I realized I felt hurt because I was still thinking about him as the boyfriend I convinced myself he was (I’ll refer to him as Imaginary Michael here). But when I reminded myself that I was broken up with Real-Life Michael, and not Imaginary Michael, I didn’t really feel hurt anymore.

Imaginary Michael wanted to keep our relationship going through the 12-30 weeks we’d spend apart because he saw a possible future for our relationship, and didn’t want to end it just because we’d temporarily be long-distance. Real-Life Michael planned on us breaking up before I graduated this year - or, if he studied abroad, before he went away next semester.

Imaginary Michael was dating me because he thought I was special, cared about me and enjoyed spending time with me. Real-Life Michael told me that he didn’t miss me during any of the 12 weeks we spent apart. Real-Life Michael said he realized that if he lost me he wouldn’t miss me, and that’s why he wanted to break up.

Imaginary Michael was mature, but Real-Life Michael is still only partially mature. But that’s not really a fault of his; it was my fault for not realizing it sooner. Real-Life Michael only confronted many of his own feelings when I pretty much forced him to in our final conversation.

I’m at a point in my life where, if a relationship becomes serious, I have real expectations. I have serious goals for my future and don’t really want to deal with someone who’s not ready to be serious with me. Which is why I’ve decided to not expect on getting into any more real relationships until after I graduate this year and move on to my next destination (I’m still deciding between LA and Taiwan). I realized that the chances of finding someone in college - at a university that often makes it to #1 on the “Top 10 Party Schools” list - who is willing to commit to me are slim.

But of course I’ll still be open to going on dates with new people. And who knows, maybe I’ll be proved wrong in my expectations and find my soulmate, haha~

To Be Surprised by Sondre Lerche

I’m not gonna lie
Saying everyone’s gonna be alright
And fine until we die
But what else can you do
But hope and pray and save
And we’ll get by

I haven’t shared music with you guys in a long time it seems~ I have two favorite songs at the moment, both of which I first heard in DJ Big Jacks’ Electric Relaxation mix.

My roommate Caro introduced me to Aritzia’s soundcloud page, which is filled with tons of really great hour-long mixes (Aritzia is fashion boutique that plays these mixes in their store).

The first song is Love for You by Calvin Harris. I got kind of confused while searching for the song because I happened across this video of Acceptable in the 80s by Calvin Harris, which is quite a different from the song I posted above:

I really enjoyed the color, clothes and everything else about the video though. :p

The second song is Down in L.A. by Munk. I’m not a big fan of the video.. but it was the only way I could post it~ Try listening to it without watching it first maybe. :]

Two singers I love in one song. One duet. I keep a list of duets I love~

I didn’t start listening to music that was made post-1980s until my senior year of highschool. These were two of the first “current day” artists I started listening to..so I guess this song holds a bit of nostalgia for me. :]

Hell No by Sondre Lerche and Regina Spektor

p.s. I’ve been pretty busy lately organizing things lately (transferring my work into a new studio space, celebrating my roommate’s 21st, etc). I know I have a ton of messages, I promise to get to them within the next couple days! Thanks so much for your patience. ♥ ♥ ♥

My roommate Caro showed recently showed me the newest music video of a band called Die Antwoord. I’d never listened to them prior to that, but I’m really enjoying both their music and videos now..I love this song especially after it hits around 1:40.

I also love how there are so many Basquiat-like drawings all over. After I noticed Yolandi’s white crop top I had to make one for myself. I knew that I wouldn’t wear a white shirt so I inverted it and made a black one instead. ;p

Sometimes you just have to make something for yourself. Not for school, selling, or even any practical reason at all. I find that it gets rid of the pent-up stress caused by not having much free time~

Made with a men’s black t-shirt ($0.90 from a thrift store) and tulip soft fabric paint. :]